It's been awhile

Well it has been awhile since I posted, so I thought I would catch everyone up. Baylee is doing good. Went to the urologist on April 20 and found everything to be ok. Just need to change some things about her bathroom habits. So we are working on that. Hunter will be 5 on May 6, so he is getting older and growing up so much. School is fixing to be out so we have a summer of nothing planned. Man is that going to be a long summer! Tim is still working the crappy job. Nough said about that. We arent doing the greatest. I am sick of constantly fighting about money, and I know that is the root of all evil. I am trying to get over it, but it is really hard. I am working weekends at a crappy job just to pay one bill. Hopefully when school starts I can get a decent job. Anyway, that is all that is going on. My life is boring, nothing happens. Take care

Wow what a week!

WOW!! This has been a crazy week. Sunday when I came home from work Baylee was running a fever and throwing up. Well Monday she wasnt any better so off to the dr we go. Get there, dr thinks she has the flu but decides to do a UA because of her past kidney issues.(thats another story in its self). Anyway, UA comes back and the proteins in her urine are a 4+ which I am guessing is pretty bad. The dr then tells me that she has a severe kidney infection. WHAT!!! You got to be kidding me. Well, I had told the dr that for the past month or so, Baylee had been coming up with a fever of about 100-101 for about a day then it would go away for a week or so. Well, we are wondering if she hasnt had this infection all this time. Anyway, a shot of Rocefin later we are heading to go get antibiotics and the dr tells me that Baylee's white blood cell count is over 25,000. She then tells me"this is really bad". She wants us back in the morning. Well around 4:00pm on Monday Baylee starts telling me her rear is hurting where she got the shot. I tell her, oh it will be sore, well I look at it and low and behold, there is a blood blister the size of your palm and her skin is white and swollen. So off to the dr we go, AGAIN!!! Come to find out, the nurse hit a vein. So everything checks out on that and we come back in the morning. Tuesday morning we go to the dr and Baylee gets another shot of Rocephin and starts the antibiotics, 1500mg a day of Keflex. CRAZY!!!! So we come home. Wednesday, we go back to the dr for another UA and blood work to make sure everything is clearing up. Baylee goes to school in the aftenoon, and she comes home saying she is really tired and freezing and she is starting to have cramping type pain. So I call the dr, and off to the dr we go again!!!! We do another UA and wait til morning to find out the results. So now we are at Thursday, she still isnt feeling the greatest and now we have this new pain. Thursday we get a call saying all the UA's are coming back fine and so is the blood work. So why the pain? Well off to the dr we go again, FOR THE 6TH TIME!!!!! Do an xray and more blood work and UA, nothing. Also draw blood to make sure the kidney is working good. Well this morning we get a call saying the blood work came back fine, the kidney's are working normal and all is good. We think the pains are due to being clogged up inside. So this weekend she gets to take some good ole Milk of Magnesia to see if we cant fix the problem. Oh and did I fail to mention, this kidney infection was so bad she should have been in the hospital Monday!!! Well all is good and we are in the right track to getting her well again.

I think it is finally happening

Some of you know and some don't so just a short background. When I was in 4th grade I was molested by a friends father. Long story short, he served 1 1/2 years of a 30 year sentence. He has now been out of jail for almost 15 years. Well, it clicked in my head one day, I wonder if he should have to register as a sex offender? So I started making phone calls, to the department of corrections and to the state registry. Well low and behold, YES he is supposed to be registered. So I started making more phone calls, to our DA here and to the County Sheriffs office. I found out that because he was convicted of lewed acts with a minor, he will have to register every 90 days FOR THE REST OF HIS LIFE!!!! Well, I found the person at the DA who is working this case, and just found out today that they served him the paper on Feb 23 that he had 3 days to register. Well the deputy serving the papers told him 10 days, whatever. He should have been registered by March 6th at the very latest. Well he has not. Hopefully he will be in jail no later than Monday!!!! Then after that, he has to re-register every 90 days FOR THE REST OF HIS LIFE!!!!!!!!!! I cant begin to tell you how happy I am that this man, well person will have to remind himself every 90 days that he is a sex offender. I so wish now that I would have thought of this earlier. But now, I am the one making his life miserable!!!!!!!! I just wish I could be there to see them haul his ass off to jail, AGAIN!!! I hope everyone is aware of who is in their neighborhoods. I have to drive by this persons house on a daily basis, so it reminds me of alot. And I think that is why I have been so adament about getting this done. I have kids of my own, I do not ever want them to have to go threw what I went through. I so cant wait for the day that he goes back to jail, I just wish it would have been for the remaining 28 1/2 years of the sentence. But I guess I will take what I can get.

Wow how time flys!!!

Well today is my baby girls birthday. 11 years ago today, she came into my world, and changed my life. She had to be taken a few weeks early because she had kidney problems. She was diagnosed with hydronaphrosis of the kidney. Basically her urator tube was not connected to her bladder. Long story short, she had two surgeries before she was a year old and is now 100% healthy. She has become such a great kid. She loves horses, loves to dance and is a great big sister. Even though she cried when I told her I was having a boy, she still loves him! She changed my life in so many ways, and I wouldnt change that for the world!!! Happy birthday kid, I love ya!!!

hmmmm

You know, I keep typing about how bad things are going for us. I keep wondering will it ever get better, and in all this I have forgotten to stop and think about the good things in my life. I have 2 great kids, yes sometimes I get stressed at them, but what parents dont? I have a husband that IS working his rear off, unfortunately because of past things, it just doesnt help us. I have a great family who is always there. A family that goes and does things together, supports each other. We are all healthy for the post part, which is a blessing in its self. My parents are older but they are doing great. Money is the root of all evil, and it makes us forget what good we have. I do appreciate that I have a great house for my kids to grow up in. I am thankful that I am living in the place I want to be. I know things will get better and everyone keeps saying God only gives you what you can handle, so apparently God knows I am stronger than what I am being right now. So it is time I suck it up and be that strong person God knows I am. I want everyone to stop and think about how blessed they are to have what they have. This is something I should have done long ago.

When will it ever end?

That is what I keep asking myself, when will it ever end? I know I am not the only one in the situation, but man give me a break! Hubby works his tail off as much as he can, he works construction, so pretty much enough said. It just seems like we cant get by. I am not being greedy, I dont think, I just want to be able to pay all my bills and be able to give my kids a little bit of a life. It seems like all I ever tell them is, I am so sorry but we dont have the money. You cant do this or that, because we dont have the money. I am sitting here trying to figure out how I am going to give my daughter a birthday. How I am going to go to the grocery store. It is bad when you have to choose electric or food. How do you choose that? I mean its not like choosing a new shirt over electric, I mean it is two things you have to have yet I have to make the choice which is more important. To make things worse, we are now 400 short a month thanks to a child that scoped out the way we live to use us and then go on down the road. It is a horrible feeling to know that a child could be so mean to his father, not care one bit about his father. But yet he will use him every chance he gets. Why is it that the harder we try to do what is right the worse we get screwed? Just once I would like things to go our way, and just be able to breath and not have to worry about how we are going to pay bills, buy food or anything normal. I just want to quit being screwed damnit!!!!!! I dont even have the peace of mind that one day everyone who has screwed us will get what they deserve, because things like that dont happen for me and my family. We just get screwed again, and worse. I was really hoping that 09 would be a better year for us, but right now is seems to only be worse, and it is only January.

I am sooo addicted!!!

Ok so I am soooo addicted to BHW...barrelhorseworld. It is a great website that I can ask for help with horses or humans.I have made several friends on there, most of whom I have never met and may never meet. But I think that is the fun in it. On another note, I rode this weekend, the first time since probably August. WOW that has been a long time. I miss getting to ride all the time. I have 2 kids that want to do their own thing, so I guess that is part of being a parent, giving up what I want for my kids. Although, I am hoping this summer to get to go a little more. The horse I have has been a god sent. He is great. I just wish I could get him out there for everyone else to see how great he is. My daughter rode for the first time since she broke her arm in July. I was so scared that she would be too scared to ride again. You see, she has been on a horse all her life, and this was the first time that she has ever really gotten hurt. I was afraid she could talk the talk but could she walk the walk, or trot the trot, whichever way you want to say it. She soooo proved me wrong. At one point while we were riding she say "mom look". I turn around and she is trotting around the arena with her arms straight out, giggling saying " look mom no hands!" Well there went the fear I thought she might have. But then again I was so relieved. I dont know what I would have done if she was scared and didnt want to ride again. I am just thankful it wasnt that. She cant wait to ride again, maybe this weekend. We will see.

2009...will it be any different?

Well 2009 is here. I brought in the new year with family, so I guess it is off to a good start. I am hoping this year will be better than last. So many things happened last year, and unfortunately not for the good. I am optimistic for this year. That is all I can be. Hope your new year brings happiness and is good to you.